Resolution never seemed so sweet.

I love that God always has a plan, even when you think you've done everything you can to mess up a situation... He's still there to orchestrate the sweetest, most beneficial and entirely perfect way to put it all back together. My favorite word right now?

RESOLVED!

So, there it is.

Love, Jackie.

Bitter Awakening

{{What You Should Know}}

Bitter Awakening was written during seasonal transitions and the literal things I saw became more. When I finally decided to write I was in the middle of watching an opera about losing love.

Things kinda came together and became a story of transitions of the heart moving on from the painful past into the warmth and healing of being okay and safely letting go of self blame, regret and anger.

Bitter Awakening

The ice was ample all around,

You left me lifeless to be found.

Every day I stood strong and lied,

While every night in weakness cried.

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Though warmth I had , my heart you break.

No strength have I, for you to take.

Spring's breezes break my husk of pain,

Induces breathing and keeps me sane.

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Timber of the dullest brown,

Soon shades of emerald shall re-crown.

Since winter gives a dormant heart,

Approaching spring brings hope to chart.

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The softest blades stroke from below,

This dewy green shall stain my toe.

Soon the sun shall evince it's worth,

First steps into a whole new earth.

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Sorrows that were can stay no more,

Hope gently twirls as the sun on my floor,

The dancers of courage aid me to see,

all that the light intends me to be.

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Soon the colors shall break ground,

As if the fields orchestrate sweet sound.

The evergreens their branches stretch,

As if their dream is to sunbeam catch.

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For a moment I thought you unfeeling and vicious,

But the sweet sun impels me to give highest wishes.

The weather does not only change seasons and tide,

It radically changes in whom my heart will confide.

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Gone is the stronghold you had on me,

Freedom resounds, from my chains I'm set free.

Sweet spring and sun are my chances for healing,

Though I can't help but inquire, how are you feeling?

...no conclusive endings.

So many questions fill my head. No one really has answers.

For an adult your life has some relative security. You are most likely able to say that within the next year you will: Keep your job, keep your spouse, keep your home, keep your life in general. Things will come and go, and life does in fact change… but there is a higher level of security and a lessened level of unknowing. It is not this way for a 19 year old girl stuck in the middle!

I am unknowing as to whether I will be able to find a job or not, in the future will I be able to get a job that doesn't drive me nuts?! Should I be in college, or can I rough it on my own? Will I make enough money to pay of my college debt or will I make enough money to support my future family without a degree? Will I marry a man who wants me to work or stay at home? Will I send my kids to public or private school… or will they be home-schooled… and these may seem like pointless, ahead of the game types of questions. However, the way one comes to ANY of those answers can truly be boiled down to two things and altered by one single decision. 1) Is this God’s perfect will for me? 2)Do I get a college degree?

Lately, I have been reminded just how horrible I am at the whole “College” thing. I’m not a great student, my time management skills suck and every day I am on campus I ask God and myself “What am I doing here?” It doesn't seem like this is where I belong and although I do enjoy it most days, it just never fully feels right. It’s not like getting my degree makes me more or less honoring to God with my life. I mean, everyone has their own path…right?

Do I choose college or do I choose doing whatever I can to go wherever God leads me outside of a degree. I know that most of the adults reading this will highly encourage me to finish my education. Honestly, can you not admit that some people are just simply not meant for college? I know that these people exist, but am I one of them?

All I want to do is to honor God with the talents He has been kind enough to bless me with. It’s a CHALLENGE every day I wake up and realize that, once more, I have to muster up the strength to project my voice in my vocal performance class when all I want to do is hide in the closet and never ever let people hear me sing. I know I’m called to more than that though. I pursue music because it is what gives me most peace, it is how I most intimately connect with God and it is what I feel like I can fake being good at.

Lately, I feel like I’m misinterpreting God…allot. When I was younger and I would go swimming in a pool with friends we would often play a sort of “Game” where we would go under water and yell at the top of our lungs some sort of funny word or phrase. We would then come up for air and the other person would try to guess what we had just yelled under the water. Of course, the words were terribly muffled, and every guess made was based on the general sound and tone. Usually your first through seventh guesses were wrong, until finally it was laid out syllable by syllable for you to understand. Has anyone else ever done this, or am I alone here? Well anyways, lately I feel like that low, muffled, non-direct voice is how God is speaking to me. It’s not a matter of just “being still” but of trying to interpret everything from basic vocal tones and drowned out consonants.

Why must I hear God this way? Why must I guess what he is trying to do in my life? I search, and search and look and seek for His direction and his still small voice, I find nothing but muffled whispers of a loving God.

I knew that I never had it fully figured out, but at the very least I thought I had a plan that was following God’s path for me. Now, I’m not so sure of anything. Every single thing I was certain of has been taken away (this is where I start humming “He gives and takes away!”).

As much as I would (beyond) LOVE bringing this blog post to a conclusive end, there isn't one. As long as my life has not concluded these questions will be swimming in my mind. There is no answer, there is no solid “Yes or no” answer… everything is relative and the relativity is based on God’s will. I feel like I’m in the balance, in some ways.

These questions and so many more conquer me daily.

God is constant and the sun still has the ability to shine, to the Almighty One be the glory but that doesn't mean I don't doubt and that I don't get confused.

Blessings, love and warmth to you on this most wretchedly cold evening.

Jackie Poole

Life...

Allot is going on in my life. Many ioi 's and lots of Jesus, laughter and of course - drama. haha

And yet, I have nothing to tell the world! :)

God is good and may you be blessed!

Jackie

ioi , Brigadoon, moods...Weekly updates.

I’m going to start giving weekly updates about some of the small things that make up large parts of my life. Most of them will speak for themselves, if you have questions please feel free to leave me comments about them.

ioi moment o the week:

Let me introduce you to “ioi moments!” This is something a friend and I came up with over our Christmas break this year. It all comes from a habit of mine. When I find victory or happiness in something I tend to raise both hands straight above my head and take a deep breath in. Over the past year this became known between a few friends and myself as my “Victory Stance!” When someone pointed out that the common shorthand or text talk term “lol” looked like a drowning man, I realized that ioi looks like a person with their arms raised above their head. There are two acceptable ways to call this moment 1) pronounce the letters used to create the visual of this person with their hands raised or, 2) just call it a “Victory” moment, using ioi simply as text symbol.

I have chosen to make ioi moments a weekly update on my blog – and I may even begin using it daily on my Facebook, Twitter, Skype, etc. Why did I make this decision? Because we always claim that God is victorious over all things, we claim fullness of joy and a realization of prosperity in the Lord. Yet, how often do will still complain about how things go wrong in life. I tend to complain allot more than I should. I have running water, a loving family, a safe home and a free country. That is more than most people in the world can claim. I am blessed, yet I don’t always see it. So, I am making it a point every week to point out a victory in my life. So, be keeping an eye out for these ioi moments, they will be coming.

Brigadoon update: Last rehearsal was a blast. The ticket sales committee is beginning to meet, sword fight choreography has begun and the vocals are sounding amazing.

Poetically worded mood of the day: Significance is found in the eye of the beholder, in this moment I contentedly find my own insignificance.

My Current Reading List...

Most people seem to think that Christmas break is the best thing since sliced bread. I would absolutely have to agree. However, with LCC it is not "Christmas Break," it's "Let's give you a break until your so bored that you want to claw your eyes out because you have nothing to do but watch movies and read all day, break!" I have been on break since December 15th, which was very nice. Right now it is January 6th... I do not go back to school until the 18th. That is 12 more days!!! I am trying to do things around the house, trying to organize my bedroom, hang out with friends, READ more, but you can only do so much of these things in a day.

Since I have had nothing to do, I am so very excited for HPA to start again tomorrow! Yes, I am absolutely thrilled. I have missed everyone so much and I have missed just being there. I think HPA is peachy keen! If you've been around me at all in the past week or so, you've probably heard my excitement. I'm so ready for rehearsal tomorrow! :)

Hmmnn... other things going on in my life?!

I've been playing my guitar more lately, which is a horror to my parents (Our house is anything but sound proof) and a wonder to me. Don't worry, it's an old acoustic with no amp... it's not that loud.

For those of you who know me well, I usually enjoy reading. However, you also know that I do not have the attention span to focus on a book long enough to finish it within any decent amount of time. This year I want that to change. I'm creating ridicoulosly long reading lists of books I would like to read, not that I have to read, but would like to. This way I can keep track of how many book I've read and which books they were. As of now my book list is getting rather long, weird thing is... I still want to add more to it. So, I am still open to suggestions. Honestly, give me any random suggestions and I'll check it out, if it doesn't interest me... well, that's why I'm using the library not buying all these books! haha

Here is my list so far.

1. The Great Divorce – C.S. Lewis
2. Crazy Love – Francis Chan
3. The 7 habits of highly effective people – Stephan R. Covey
4. Faith to Faith – Dan Scott
5. Glen Beck’s Common Sense – Glen Beck
6. His Princess Bride – Sheri Rose Shepherd
7. In the Name of Jesus – Henri J.M. Nouwen
8. Love Dare – Kendrick
9. The Princes of Ireland (The Dublin Saga) – Edward Rutherfurd
10. Bright Sword of Ireland – Juilene Osborne – McKnight
11. Captivating – John & Stasi Eldredge
12. Wild At Heart – John Eldredge
13. Rebels of Ireland – Rutherfurd
14. Songs of Ireland – ?
15. Wastelands – Post Apocalyptic composite
16. The strong shall live – Louis L’Amour
17. Set Apart Femininity – Leslie Ludy
18. Real Christianity – William Wilberforce
19. Breaking Free – Beth Moore
20. Dangerous Wonder – Mike Yaconelli
21. Love Revolution – Joyce Meyer
22. Hunger Games – Suzanne Collins

Yeah, it's high hopes for a slow, distract-able reader like me. But I'm going to try. Plus i'm still wanting to add more on. :P

Well, that is all I have to say right now. Not much interesting I'm sure. I promise things will get more interesting when school starts back up, you just have to bear through the 12 days with me!

... I think it's time to cross my arms, kick my feet and throw a fit... I want school NOW! However, i know that such relief can never come when you actually want it! haha

Fervently,

Jackie

Suggestions?

I am looking for suggestions.

Two of my new years resolutions are to blog once a week and to read more (non school related) books. I am looking for suggestions on both. Any ideas on subjects I should talk about... I'm open to most anything. My aim is to blog once a week for ALL of 2011.... if not more often.

Another aim is to read more books. So, really as long as there are no comic related or alien fiction then i'll most likely be interested.

So, here is your charge. SUGGEST AWAY!

New year, new opportunities.

If you've read my posts, or if you look back into my recent blogging history (don't even bother) you can plainly see that the daily blogging world is not working so well. However, this is a new year and a new opportunity to try.

Some new years "Resolutions" are as follows.

1) To read allot more than I have been. I have a reading list and fully intend to complete it over this next year. This actually is a big deal for me, I'm not a major reading person.

2) To find the confidence in myself I once possessed but at some point lost.

3) To be more open.

4) To blog Once a week. I may, rarely, blog more than once but my goal remains ONCE! I intend to keep my blog during school and all the crazy happenings in life. This one will most likely be the hardest for me, it takes allot of thought.

Tonight, I don't have much to say.

Fervently,

Jackie

Finally! I'm back, for good...maybe.

Well, since I discovered the hard way NOT to challenge myself to blog everyday during finals week I had to postpone my mission. However, as of Thursday my classes are done tests are over and Christmas break has begun. Friday was the absolute perfect day to start my winter break with a bang. Lots of fellowship, laughter (until there were tears), sledding, snowball fights, playing knights and maidens like little kids, white elephant and more. God has given me allot.

With that, I'm excited to delve into Acts. Round two of blogging everyday, chapter two of acts.

Acts 2:2

"Suddenly a sound like the blowing of a violent wind came from heaven and filled the whole house where they were sitting."

- Nothing super deep to say here, but perhaps this explains why I enjoy sitting outdoors in the middle of windstorms so much?

I challenge you to read Acts 2: 3-13. It's only 10 verses, but very important ones. Allot of people tend to discredit speaking in tongues, much like those in verse 13. Although I could, I will not sit here and give you a lengthy description of what I believe, I will say that as bible believing, Christians redeemed through Christ we are all called to believe this:

2 Timothy 3:16 "All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness,"

My thought is this. If you believe that the redemption of Jesus Christ through His sacrifice on the cross is relevant for today's world and our lives, then you must also believe that acts 2 is relevant and useful for us now.

Now, I will make it clear that I do believe in speaking in tongues. It's in the bible, so I should, unless I mean to discredit hell, heaven and salvation too. Your response may be similar to this one, which I have received before - "It seems like everyone is just abusing the idea and in doing so making it irrelevant." Well, I'm sorry you feel that way.

I never got the chance to truly respond how I would have liked to that statement. So, I will tell you now... if you even read this.

I see speaking in tongues like any other spiritual gift. If you've taken any sort of spiritual gift "asessment test" (which, if you haven't you should try to get your hands on one!) you are able to see that these gifts are diverse. So, comparing... let's say, Administration (?) to speaking in tongues.

With speaking in tongues, it IS possible for people to abuse it. It would seem very easy to let the idea over come you and "speak in tongues" to feel more spiritual. This is not the true movement of the Holy Spirit. However, when the Holy Spirit does move it is powerful and beautiful. Weather to us it seems as though someone was sampling the wine or just like gibberish, life does not always center on our understanding. So, it can be abused, but also well used.

Administration, there is a good way to use this gift and a way to abuse it. If someone is joining a group and heading into a leadership or "administrative" position it would be easy to get full of ego and misuse power. Being angered and displeased easily, pushing others around and being plain out overly bossy. My guess is, this is NOT how God intended this gift to be used. However, someone could enter the same leadership position and take a humble stance. Asking others what has and hasn't worked to reach the given goal with the group. Making it clear that you in no way believe you are the ultimate authority on everything in the world. There is a way to abuse administration and there is a way to use it well.

Really, you should just read Acts 2 and pray about what God wants to show you through it... I am in no way a scholar or any sort of authority when it comes to biblical texts. I just think that too often we let misled members of the body define what we see as possible and impossible. We put God in a box, we put that box behind bars, and build a church of "religion" on top of that dungeon. God cannot be hidden in a box, he is much to glorious to be contained. Again, I would challenge you to read Acts 2 and have a prayerfully sensitive spirit to what the Lord would have you learn from it.

There is allot of really good stuff in Acts 2...go read it! :)

Jackie

...oops!

Dear blogging world,

No, I did not forget about my blogging commitment. However, I made the mistake of challenging myself right before finals!! These next 9 days are going to be MUCH too hectic for me to write blog posts. I am postponing my challenge until I have finished with all of my final exams and last minute homework. So, I will see you all after the 16th of this month.

Day one, chapter one... already behind.

Well, leave it to me to take an entire 24 hours to forget my intentions. Now do you see why I didn't "pledge" to this?! ha ha Either way, here I am. Over 2 hours past my deadline... how about a big hurrah for better late than never? I will get better at this, I will, really! Have I convinced anyone yet? No? ... that's alright. I haven't entirely convinced myself yet either.

So, now we dig in.

Acts 1:

So, much to be said.

It starts out as a little story about Jesus returning for 40 days and His ascension into heaven.

There is a short bit of conversation that truly makes me happy.

Acts 1:6-8

6 "So, when they met together, they asked him, 'Lord, are you at this time going to restore the kingdom to Israel?'"

Is this not reminiscent of a child?! Christ at one point told them that the Kingdom would be restored unto Israel... the disciples cannot wait. I almost see a car full of children. Dad accidentally let it slip that the family is driving to Disney Land, all of the sudden sleepy kids in backseat buckles turn into broken records... "ARE WE THERE YET?!"

So, the disciples ask again... are you restoring Israel yet? Maybe, now? Although I'm sure there are things I do not comprehend about this simple verse or things that I do not know that I should be taking into account. However this verse, this small, short and to the point verse makes me feel much less alone in my childlike excitement and impatience with God. He's told me he has a plan and I know what I am called to in life. Sometimes I blow my cover and loose my cool..."God, are we there yet?!"

7 -8 " He said to them: ' It is not for you to know the times or dates the Father has set by his own authority. But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you, and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.'"

So, It doesn't matter how many times I ask God "Are we there yet?"... apparently it's supposed to be a secret. I dislike this. I know I should be a good Christian and say "In God's time not mine!" But guess what. I am human. I want to know. Yes, I will do everything I can to be fulfilled in God's timing but his doesn't mean that I will always go down without a fight. God made me, He of all people should understand the depth of my stubbornness. However, I am thankful to know that when the Holy Spirit pours over me I will receive the power of Christ. Power to witness to all the earth.

So, if I have been moved by the Holy Spirit and posses the Power to witness to all the world there is allot being covered. If I am witnessing to the world as a whole, that means I am not paying attention to generational differences, skin color, nationality, sexual orientation, religious beliefs, cultural customs, language or which version of the bible someone reads. Also, it means that I never say "Well, that's just not my type of ministry!" Because ministries (whatever they may be: Sexual abuse help, in church discipleship, teaching English, youth ministry Etc.) are all just a member of the body filling a need. If I am witnessing to the world, I am witnessing through all ministries. How do I put this in action? I plan to make a change. I am no longer wanting passionate about a ministry. I am just wanting to be passionate about God, and he loves all the ministries, so should I.

You know, I can tell that you are still thinking about the fact that I am not resolving to work on my stubbornness. In response to your possibly negative thoughts: Oh well, life is short and there are more important things for me to change and improve on when it comes to my personality and who I am in Christ. :)

The next thing that caught my eye was the heading for the next section of scripture. Just before verse 12 begins, the header states this: "Matthias chosen to replace Judas"

This strikes me. A member of the Body that was once serving a great life for Christ who strayed from the Holy intention for his life was simply replaced. It reminds me of a message given before flying out from training for my missions trip to Panama several years ago. The speaker was encouraging us, and building us up in our decision to follow God's call. I distinctly remember him saying "God called you to go, but guess what? If you were to tell God 'no!' He could still get the job done without you. If you are going to deny Christ he can find someone who will reply with a ready heart! But he wants YOU to be blessed and involved." This thought has stuck with me.

As a spoiled member of the body I have fallen into the trap of thinking that I, Jackie Poole, am absolutely irreplaceable. Sometimes, I think I even feel like some ministry wouldn't get done without me. Truth is - God can do anything he chooses. Including re-filling previously taken spaces in life. Judas wronged Christ, his position amongst the Disciples was filled by another, who was deemed appropriate for the spot. What am I a part of that is NOT completed :because: of me?... EVERYTHING. I am simply blessed to be used by God, my contribution to ministry is not something God couldn't conjure up on His own, He just wanted me to be apart of something bigger than myself.

With that, I am concluding. I hope that this made some sort of sense. If not... well, I apologize. My thoughts tend to ramble on when it's 3am.

Hoping for growth,

Jackie Poole

Hmmm... Back again, for good?

Dear Blogging World,

I have neglected my desire to blog. This is not okay. I shouldn't talk myself out of doing interesting things, especially not blogging. This is something so simple, so cheap and so easily accessible that I really shouldn't shun away from writing. Even if there are no readers. So, I am beginning to re-fan the desire to write thoughts into the great abyss of online blogging. Where do I begin?!

I know for a fact that If I do not have something to blog about, I will not blog. There isn't all that much going on in my life, so I don't want to bore people with that. I'm sure no one wants to know weather my mother or I made dinner. haha So, I've been thinking today - What is something I am passionate about? What is something I could spend time on and not feel like I've wasted part of my day. Well, there are a few things. Music, although I'm sure no one wants to hear my rants on that. Acting, but there is absolutely nothing going on in that particular area of my life. Strengthening relationships with friends and family... probably not an interesting topic.

I did, however, find one topic that I think we all could use a little more focus on. Scripture.

So, I thought to myself - while I was supposed to be manning the check in table - is this something I could talk about?! I don't want to write "The bible according to Jackie!" ... believe me when I say, we do not all need to be screwed up like I am!

Something did eventually come to mind, it is with great vulnerability and courage that I am going to blog my way through the book of Acts. There is so much wisdom for us, the body of believers, in this book. So much wise instruction to the church as a whole. Which really translates to -- So much that I need to work on and so much that I need to understand about being a member of the body!

Everyday until I'm through the whole book (which, if I keep on track will be 28 days) I will be blogging about whichever chapter in Acts that I will have read. I may cut some chapters in half... those Godly men can be pretty long winded... and I don't just mean those who wrote the scripture. ;)

Let this be my "Pledge"... well, maybe I won't say pledge. That is a pretty concrete decision.... Um, let's say it this way. Let this be my full intention: To write my thoughts, Where I am being convicted, My plans to change and my understanding of the scriptures everyday until I have blogged my way through Acts.

For those of you who may or may not exist as readers,

WARNING: THIS CHICK USES HUMOR!!!!!

I think God has a sense of humor... if you know me, you have probably realized that God can be pretty funny.

With this, I bid thee farewell.

May the Spirit fill us all,

Jackie Poole

*Commence perfect exit song -- HERE -- *

Ode To Nigel - A fish you were!

You swam around your small abode, dancing to skillet with great skill.

You bobbed your head, swished your tail, and even pumped your gill!

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When the daylight broke and we still slept, you floated there with ease.

You tried to understand your owner's obsession with different kinds of cheese!

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Writing letters from afar, you let Joanna know,

the different things that happened here while Christ's love she tried to show.

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The things you did brought joy to us, mostly because you were crazy.

But now we see that really, you were colorful... we were lazy.

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We tapped your tank and screamed allot, yet somehow you still lived.

It seems you had so many gifts that you just loved to...gived.

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Your life was full, you wrote so well - but now your time has come. It's been real great to know you man, but now I fear you've gone!

R.I.P. Nigel, you were a good fishy to my friend!

Peace

As I sit here, wishing that things would start picking up a little more for the summer I am realizing that this is peace.

Yes, my mom is in the other room on the phone and I can hear her talking, my dad is sleeping (snoring) on the couch while :listening: to talk radio. And yes, I am sitting in the very same room with my headphones plugged into my laptop listening to my music while I can hear each of those other somewhat noisy happenings over my own activity. You may call this disfunction, I call it peace. Peace does not rest in the amount of noise or family activity. It does not rest on if you feel anxious or if you feel just right.

To me, I have peace right now - in the middle of this train wreck combination of sounds I have peace.

Peace is knowing that you are doing exactly what you were made to do in this very moment.

Some things I know I am made to do are things like: Spend time with and encourage friends, pray, do devotions, be involved with people-based ministries, Singing, Music, laugh, make jokes, and dream... amongst other various things.

I just got home from coffee with a friend, I spent 3 hours with her - and although moments were silent, not a SINGLE minute was waisted. God created me to have healthy relationships that I can nurture and enjoy in fellowship, so that is what I did. God created me to worship him and realize his blessings of peace in my life. So me sitting here blogging about the peace I am seeing that I have, and listening to worship is perfect.

Although this may not be the biggest realization someone could have, it is in fact a wonderful load of my shoulders to know that being at Peace is not everything being perfect and calm, and me knowing exactly what the rest of my life is. I can be at peace, and my heart can take rest in the Lord knowing that I am pursuing my God given talents through music and my every day relationships with the people who have helped make me, me!

I know not what the Lord has for my future, but I trust him with it. I am at Peace with the fact that my life is chaotic and crazy, that people come and go, that some people you will never get rid of and that in the middle of the most confusing moments and periods in my life I can look to God and see that I as long as I am honoring my Lord and being who I am meant to be...I am doing exactly what I need to be doing.

So, when I think about it. I over use and over idealize the word PEACE. But you know what, I still have it - and for that I am very very thankful!

With Love,

Jackie

Oh the sweet sounds of last minute plans!

Well, it's been around a month, I guess it's time for me to write to the great nothingness of public internet again.

My summer is usually quite planned out by now. I used to have all my plans in order for every Friday, Saturday and Sunday for the entire summer down packed by now. But this summer I have very few people to plan with. Most of my close girlfriends are simply not around or available. My friends are everywhere but home! One is in South Africa, one in Oklahoma, and one is quite occupied with family happenings and a relationship. Yes, each of them will be available at some point or another... but very small windows of opportunity.

This summer has become one of College prep, reading and last minute plans! I used to not enjoy last minute plans because I felt as if I were always imposing on someone or like I was simply unprepared. However, I currently find last minute plans very agreeable! I am planning a coffee date with a friend for tomorrow afternoon as I am this writing now (at midnight).

In all this calmness I find a need for noise and chaos. I thrive with people around in the middle of absolute chaos. So, it only makes sense that last minute plans are working out well for me right now.

I simply cannot wait until fall comes and I am busy again. College classes, hanging out around HPA rehearsal days :D , and trying to help my mom take care of the house while my dad is on his 2nd tour since 9/11. A busy life seems to me like a more useful life.

People keep on asking me :what I am doing with my summer:.. I fail at having a ready response. After thinking about it... I think I am actually going to start working through the reading list my pastor recommended for me back in September.

Well, I am rambling now. Perhaps next time I should wait until I actually have something of sorts to write about... Hm, what a concept!

I am off, can't wait to see what last minute thrills this weekend will have in store for me!

With Love,

Jackie