Sunday, August 16, 2009

But I don't want to grow up!

Maturity is a choice! I have had a difficult time learning this, and I am still having trouble fulling grasping this. However, I am able to see this statement's truth. I can choose to become a more responsible and whole person, it is not all up to fate and "Growing up!" I am able to see that taking responsibility in my communications with people, and making more of an effort will most certainly be profitable. I am not saying "God has no control, I have it all!" I most certainly do not want to make that statement, but I do want to be able to say that a gave an effort and that I gave it my all! I am still in the balance of trying to figure out, what is simply my personality (Randomness and spontanious actions) and what is unneccasary child-like behavior. Being imature, in most cases (but not all) is not pleasing to the Lord. At least that is the case I see in my life, where I am being immature I am being selfish and rude! Things can change though, and thank God that change is a possibility! ~Jackie~ Dear Lord, You are Holy, and I thank you that you even thought to love me! Things will change and I think that sucks most times, but thank you for your willingness to deal with my immaturity and selfishness! You are the most High King, and I thank you for all you are to me! Amen!